"Reminiscing"

"Reminiscing"




I keep traveling back

To another day

Many years ago

When I walked away




I had a good life

A job that I enjoyed

Yet my smile was scarce

My happiness void




My Mother seen I was unhappy

That I needed to get out and date

But I'm not the type of guy

To find love second rate




 I tried the bar scene

But it wasn't for me

I didn't want a drunk

Or a criminal history




So I posted online

As my Mother had before

She said, "give it a shot"

As I opened a new door




I thought it was a joke

Dating online

Nothing to take serious

Until the stars seemed to align




I logged into the site

With a message or two waiting

One was just the usual

The other one more relating




I read the message

Intrigued at the thought

Of dating a Soldier

I thought I'd give it a shot




More and more messages

Between her and I

Every day on my way to work

I never wanted to say "goodbye"




Then the day came

I was sitting in a Kroger parking space

Des sang to her daughter

In her voice such grace




That moment I felt

My heart skip a beat

Her beautiful voice

I hoped I would soon meet




Later that night

I made my choice

I put in for vacation

I had to meet that beautiful voice




She was coming soon

Only six hours away

She asked if I'd help move

I never thought I'd stay




We got her unpacked

Then started to talk

I didn't know it yet

But I'd never want to walk




It wasn't long

Before I was in love

With a beautiful Soldier

Seemingly sent from above




I never thought

I'd make it there

Genuinely happy

With not a care




Then I met

The beautiful little girl

Who soon called me Daddy

Trin will always me my world




This was six year ago

Yet the feelings are still true

Eight hundred miles apart

Yet my heart stays with you




I meant every word

Til death do us part

With every breath that I breath

I'll love you with all my heart...

"Past is Present"

"Past is Present"

I'm driving forward

into the past

the present behind me

wishing the past was my last

ive still got that feeling

of butterflies when we talk

my love has only grown

next to you i want to forever walk

but it cannot be

for my past mistakes

the price i pay

for the hearts i break

I've hurt you in ways

that cannot be undone

a victim of myself

and a love on the run

the life i lost

when you walked away

showed me my mistakes

why nobody stays

but with you its different

my love is true

there's nobody in this world

that could compare to you

so now what do i do

when I'm sitting in the presence of the past

wishing every day

that you would have been my last

i want to hold you

kiss away your tears

love you like i couldn't

alleviate you fears

but this is just a poem

words written on a page

its not going to bring you back

i should have acted my age

its not about love

that much we've got

but the trust i broke

the chance would take a lot

Im not gonna beg you

or ask you to stay

come thursday afternoon

ill be on my way

im heading back home

but id much rather stay

a baby and school

i know theres no way

we dont have to be together

its just nice to see your face

but its so hard not to kiss you

i feel our love misplaced...

"Afraid"

"Afraid"

the crimes i had committed

i was guilty as sin

a scared little boy

hiding from demons within

i never meant to hurt you

i'm sorry for every tear

my love for you was true

it was me living in fear

you'll always be my love

ill always hold you dear

ill spend my life wishing

i could have kept you near

My love has grown

over time and space

afraid to talk to you

or see your beautiful face

I have a new fear now

that's weighing me down

I'm afraid ill never stop loving you

never stop wanting you around

i'm sorry for the hurt

the pain you felt

i still feel it today

from the pain i dealt

I'm lying in a hotel

after an amazing day

afraid of seeing you again

afraid of what you may say

was it all a mistake

the time we spent

i shudder at the thought

and try to repent

you and trin

hold my heart

with every beat

it pains me to be apart

Maybe I shouldn't have came

made it easier on all

cause when i seen your face

i instantly felt the fall

i'm still madly in love

and i can't help but say

i long to wake up next to you

for the rest of my days

you told me tonight

love never dies

if you ever find yourself single

just look me in the eyes

you'll see the man

that I've become

because the person i used to be

was slowly coming undone

until that time

I'm always here

a victim of my love

no longer living in fear

so keep my heart

and hold it near

think of my love

anytime you feel a tear...